Im sorry I didn't see the check in posts - Im still getting my ducks in their rows, and they keep moving around! jk.
Yes, its been a wild ride. Its been almost 3 months now, which sounds like a long time, but so much has happened. The attack has been on my mind every day, but mostly at night when Im at home alone.
Ive filed for divorce, and its been a few weeks. Since then the boat was taken (bad on him!), and a few of his "friends" have texted asking for things like titles and his apple watch.

"For all inquiries contact my lawyer at .... and by the way never contact me again".

September 17, his criminal lawyer will meet with the prosecutor to "negotiate" according to the victims advocate. He is pleading not guilty, but that could change.

On the family court front, he didnt show up to his continuance - and we did and his lawyer did, and the restraining order was extended as well as they added the social media slander must stop or he is in violation.

On the social community front - I have let go of some folks. Reconnected with friends that are from way way back. One person is a widower, although they were not married - together 7 years. And she is also divorced from a narcissist. We went to jr high together. She's a business owner of a shop that is a proponent of rehabbing clothes to keep them out of landfills. She's a powerhouse against fast fashion, and very sweet. No drugs and she doesnt drink, but soapbox either. 

Another friend is online support, and she's an aesthetician helping me with my skin - wrinkles and rosacea, plus helping me through the whole social morass. The sticky ickyness of navigating the social sludge. Ive lost some "friends". I am having trouble as someone put it, separating my feelings for him from what he did (the attack and the prior verbal and emotional abuse)

I cannot understand how I can tell someone what happened, and they come back with "I don't want to get involved" or "I don't know who to believe" or "you brought it on with your evil ways". I looked that one in the eye during the Humiliation Party with the Insane Clown Posse and said "really, I made him hit me and choke me and smother me with my evil ways? I made him do that? Your as crazy as he is". In front of ex wife ICP and daughter ICP.

So, even now Im struggling with the social/community aspects of "how on earth could you continue to support this unemployed drug dealer addict abuser?"
My friend group is small. But fiercely on my side of things. Ive been going out, having fun, meeting new people and getting lots of positive male attention. Not going too deep, but its been really nice and confidence building. I didnt realize how badly I thought of myself as a woman. 
How much it affected me is dramatic accusations of hooking up with random men and the horrific accusations of molesting the dogs too. Im battling depression and sadness. But without alcohol, and medications. It seems manageable to me, because I feel my way through it and have times of joy.

More to come!